I think there are three of you who read my blog. You're all a big deal though, so I decided to write again for you three people. I am hoping this post may be slightly therapeutic too, because I sure need some of that.
We are on week five of our school year, and it seems like every time I get slightly comfortable something occurs that makes me very uncomfortable. I won't divulge too many details, but needless to say I came away feeling violated, disgusting, and not very trusting. Luckily for me, the scriptures had just the right answers when I needed them most. I am reading about Mormon in the actual book of Mormon. He is dealing with the Nephites who are described as being so disobedient that Mormon doesn't give a full account "that ye might not have too much sorrow because of the wickedness of this people." (Mormon 5: 9) Sound like a world we live in? Mormon previously states a perfect description of my feelings of this "wicked" state when he shares his sentiments with these words, "I was without hope...for they repented not of their iniquities, but did struggle for their lives without calling upon that Being who created them." (Mormon 5:2) The world has trends that I am not okay with, especially when they effect me very personally. Do you think these trends stem from the fact that we too have forgotten that Being who has created us, and calling upon His name? I think so, because when we forget God, Satan can embed "wicked' things into our lives. Mormon doesn't leave us hopeless though. He pens these beautiful words that made everything okay for a bit, "Know ye not that ye are in the hands of God? Know ye not that he hath all power...." (Mormon 5:23) It's an overwhelming feeling to visualize perfect hands touching my life and directing circumstances to shape the perfect mortal experience necessary to prepare me to meet my God and physically grasp his hands with mine. So even though my heart hurts, my body is worn down, and I feel awkward...I think I can do this, because I am blessed. My mom prays for me too, and I sure do need that angel mom.
Well, on a lighter note other things have occurred that are pretty great. I moved out of my parents home, bought a new car, returned to a YSA ward (not sure if this is positive or not yet), found some new dear friends, received a new church calling, rode my bike all around town, experienced the taco wagon by Cal Ranch for the first time, hiked Table Rock and Darby Canyon, water skied on one ski (still have some skill), survived and loved girls camp, visited Washington D.C. and was fascinated by it, received a new nephew, worked at the temple, rode horses, and learned a little more about myself. Here are some shots of a few great memories.
Thomas and Lewis
Table Rock
I love the view!
The Girls
It's Heaven On Earth.
My Mom and Aunt Cara leading the way.
Washington Monument
Dying because of the heat and the humidity as I went to go visit this guy.
We are on week five of our school year, and it seems like every time I get slightly comfortable something occurs that makes me very uncomfortable. I won't divulge too many details, but needless to say I came away feeling violated, disgusting, and not very trusting. Luckily for me, the scriptures had just the right answers when I needed them most. I am reading about Mormon in the actual book of Mormon. He is dealing with the Nephites who are described as being so disobedient that Mormon doesn't give a full account "that ye might not have too much sorrow because of the wickedness of this people." (Mormon 5: 9) Sound like a world we live in? Mormon previously states a perfect description of my feelings of this "wicked" state when he shares his sentiments with these words, "I was without hope...for they repented not of their iniquities, but did struggle for their lives without calling upon that Being who created them." (Mormon 5:2) The world has trends that I am not okay with, especially when they effect me very personally. Do you think these trends stem from the fact that we too have forgotten that Being who has created us, and calling upon His name? I think so, because when we forget God, Satan can embed "wicked' things into our lives. Mormon doesn't leave us hopeless though. He pens these beautiful words that made everything okay for a bit, "Know ye not that ye are in the hands of God? Know ye not that he hath all power...." (Mormon 5:23) It's an overwhelming feeling to visualize perfect hands touching my life and directing circumstances to shape the perfect mortal experience necessary to prepare me to meet my God and physically grasp his hands with mine. So even though my heart hurts, my body is worn down, and I feel awkward...I think I can do this, because I am blessed. My mom prays for me too, and I sure do need that angel mom.
Well, on a lighter note other things have occurred that are pretty great. I moved out of my parents home, bought a new car, returned to a YSA ward (not sure if this is positive or not yet), found some new dear friends, received a new church calling, rode my bike all around town, experienced the taco wagon by Cal Ranch for the first time, hiked Table Rock and Darby Canyon, water skied on one ski (still have some skill), survived and loved girls camp, visited Washington D.C. and was fascinated by it, received a new nephew, worked at the temple, rode horses, and learned a little more about myself. Here are some shots of a few great memories.
Thomas and Lewis
Table Rock
I love the view!
The Girls
It's Heaven On Earth.
My Mom and Aunt Cara leading the way.
Washington Monument
Dying because of the heat and the humidity as I went to go visit this guy.
Okay, first item...that pillow that your nephews are on? The blue one with the brown and cream circles? That's what Annie's quilt on her bed looks like right now!
ReplyDeleteSecond item...sorry I didn't respond to the text last night. I haven't had time to take a breath for the past two weeks, so I will get back...someday...hopefully soon. :) I need an update.
P.S. That picture of your nephews is so sweet!!!
What a great post. I so admire your strength and your ability to look at things in an eternal perspective. I hope you know that your Mom is not the only one praying for you! I sure love you!
ReplyDeletehi... i love you!
ReplyDeleteOi, I hope you count me. I read this blog everytime it is updated, I love you. You can do this. We can do hard things.
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